i'm just saying...
Examine the joy in your life. It may be misery in disguise.
Its ok. Im ok. We are ok. You cant live up to my expectations and I accept that. Theres nothing wrong with that. Its just too much for you and I understand. I wont push you to be something you dont want to be. You dont want me to trust you, thats fine. You don’t want me to expect honesty from you, hey, thats okay. The fact is, I like you. I want you around. I just thought you were different. I thought i could confide in you and share my life with you. It was me that was wrong and i realize now that you’re not that kind of friend. Youre more of a casual, dont have emotions, not allowed to have feelings kind of friend. Its ok, ill take it for what it is. Ill take you down a few notches, stop caring so much about you, and meet you eye to eye on the actual level of friendship this is. I have faith that I will find someone that will meet my expectations. .. one I’m allowed to feel any emotion with. One who loves the laughter and isnt afraid of the tears. Someone who I can be myself around and who doesnt judge. Who thinks of me of me and puts me first once in a while. Someone who inspires me and who I can count on. Someone who treats me like losing me would be devastating. My friendship can be intense, but its exactly how I would treat a good friend.
I deserve way more than what I’ve allowed myself to believe and what I’ve allowed others dictate. I’m worth so much more than this.
And to everyone who’s made me feel like I was inadequate, like I would never be good enough, and that I was worthless here’s a big “FUCK YOU!” to you. You’ll be eating those words soon enough, I can promise you that.
They say that I expect too much from people. Well yeah, I expect you to meet my expectations cuz I sure as hell aint lowering my standards.